Saturday, February 04, 2006

 

When reality hits...

Ever been in a situation where you were warned against the possible devious intentions of a particular someone, and you took it oh so lightly?

Sometimes due to the relationship you have/had with that someone...
Sometimes due to the trust you have/had in that someone, believing that "No, that someone would never do that to me."
Sometimes due to the simplicity of one's own mind, thinking that "Man is good. Man is kind." (Ignorance, in some sense/"to a moderate/middle extent" isn't bliss.)
Sometimes due to our own stubborn nature, "What you say is definitely wrong."
Sometimes due to the perceived bias perception held by that individual who warned you against impending threat... "You're just biased! Stop imposing your biased beliefs on me!"
And the list goes on...

And even when there were signs indicating the truth in the warning, we choose to ignore it? And we think of alternatives to justify the nature of it, the reasons behind it, etc?

But I think all the while, I kinda believed the warning. Instinct, or maybe just a precaution? So I chose to avoid the whole issue completely, not wanting, or daring to confront it. But the conscience kinda ate me up at times. But I never was prepared to deal with it, given the circumstances.

However, it was today that reality hit. Better sooner than later? It all happened in a matter of seconds. A short phonecall. I kinda got duped into answering the phone cos it was an unfamiliar number. ("Should we ever pick up the phone if it isn't in our caller id? Discuss.") Argh! The lowly methods that one resorts to! And the 'courage' that one had, using someone else to fish information from me instead of having the guts to speak to me in person! That makes me so mad!

Nevertheless, it proved the point, the query, the suspicion, the warning. It was all true. True to its very word.

"Father, forgive him for he knows not what he has done."
It's a struggle. It's not easy. We should forgive cos God forgave us despite our sins, and even sent Jesus Christ, His own Son, down to die for our sins. No sin is more sinful than another in God's eyes. For example, murder is not more sinful than a small lie. We shouldn't judge our sins according to worldly standards. And only the Most Holy One - God, is more than worthy, and the ONLY ONE worthy to judge us. God, please help me forgive.

The problem remains yet unsolved, though I now know the truth in it. Till then.... should I continue to be naive and trusting? Or should I be wary? Where is the in-between?

Comments:
hugs! call me if u need to talk
 
"2-3-5-3-5-3-5. Pizza Hut delivery."

Duckie went to sleep instead. All huddled up under covers, with the butt sticking up. =)
 
haha ur reply abt the butt sticking up made me laugh. it's ok. this is what happens when you grow up. i get it sometimes too...sigh.
 
Oops. So unglam. Hee.

Heh. That's cos you are just too nice and soft-hearted! =)
 
Not sure what happened but know that forgiving takes time and that in all things, God works for the good of those who love Him.
 
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