Thursday, February 15, 2007
Forgiveness as an issue?
Why is it that I always feel like I'm knocking my head against the wall? Time and again... time and again... It always looks so tempting. Or is it just cos I'm so dumb to see that there's actually another way round it?
Or is it cos my perspectives are all wrong? Maybe I should really try to see things from God's point of view. That I am here to serve Him, and not me. And if things were to happen in the opposite manner (or another manner), then maybe it's His way of telling me i"t's not time yet... wait", or "no, this is not appropriate", or that He's testing me to see how I fare (how I handle the situation) and I've failed His test again.
Where's the faith? Where's the strength?
How do I say "I'm not important"...
If forgiveness is really my issue here, I really do need lots of strength. I know that God forgave all my sins (however hedious) and loved me so much that He sent Jesus down to die for me. And that I have no right to not forgive others, because I am a sinner too.
But when do I say "enough is enough"? Is there a limit? Do I even have a right to put a limit to it?
You know, I always felt that forgiving is a weak person's job. To forgive because there's nothing else you can do. But when you 'punish' the wrongdoer, you are actually punishing yourself as well. There's always this load burdening you, and you get literally tired in the process. It's easy to say "I don't care" but frankly, we cannot don't care.
But when you are put into the situation, to forgive requires lots of strength. The strength to actually accept it, to actually let it go, to give freedom back... and to gain freedom in return. It definitely isn't a weak person's job... but a job which requires lots of inner strength.
Or is it cos my perspectives are all wrong? Maybe I should really try to see things from God's point of view. That I am here to serve Him, and not me. And if things were to happen in the opposite manner (or another manner), then maybe it's His way of telling me i"t's not time yet... wait", or "no, this is not appropriate", or that He's testing me to see how I fare (how I handle the situation) and I've failed His test again.
Where's the faith? Where's the strength?
How do I say "I'm not important"...
If forgiveness is really my issue here, I really do need lots of strength. I know that God forgave all my sins (however hedious) and loved me so much that He sent Jesus down to die for me. And that I have no right to not forgive others, because I am a sinner too.
But when do I say "enough is enough"? Is there a limit? Do I even have a right to put a limit to it?
You know, I always felt that forgiving is a weak person's job. To forgive because there's nothing else you can do. But when you 'punish' the wrongdoer, you are actually punishing yourself as well. There's always this load burdening you, and you get literally tired in the process. It's easy to say "I don't care" but frankly, we cannot don't care.
But when you are put into the situation, to forgive requires lots of strength. The strength to actually accept it, to actually let it go, to give freedom back... and to gain freedom in return. It definitely isn't a weak person's job... but a job which requires lots of inner strength.
# posted by Banana Saviour @ 8:09 AM 
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I believe Jesus came to give us life, life that is free from sin and bondage...
I agree that it's easier to just "give up" rather than to really forgive. There are so many times where I have continued to begrudge where I should have forgiven and many people are hurt because of that. I have to remember that forgiving doesn't mean forgetting it. It means I let go of the RIGHT to be angry so even if I remember what was done wrong to me, I can choose to say, I forgive because God first forgave me.
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I agree that it's easier to just "give up" rather than to really forgive. There are so many times where I have continued to begrudge where I should have forgiven and many people are hurt because of that. I have to remember that forgiving doesn't mean forgetting it. It means I let go of the RIGHT to be angry so even if I remember what was done wrong to me, I can choose to say, I forgive because God first forgave me.
Make sense?
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